Thursday, October 9, 2008


Have you had one of those days where you just don't want to work. OK, I have these kind of days more often than I should. But today I feel compelled to write & I don't know why & I don't know what I should write about.

I feel so emotional today and I have no idea why. Why do I feel like crying? I really don't have anything to be sad about, except for maybe the economy. With everything in the news, you can't help but feel a little scared & worried.

I'm worried about my job (so why am I not working?), I'm worried about keeping my home. I'm worried about putting food on my table for my family. I'm worried about everything financial. I'm trying not to, but it is hard. I'm a Langston, we are worriers (is that a word?).

Mike always gets on me that I worry too much. I try to tell him it is in my DNA to worry. It's always fun when Eric comes over as he is just like me. I look at Mike & smile and say "See, he is a Langston too, it's in our genes".

Are the rest of you worriers? I justify my worrying by saying that I plan for the worst & hope for the best. Mike says I am just being negative. Which I know I am, it's hard to change that. Mike is a glass half full person & I am a glass half empty person.

Mike always tells me to think positive. If you think positive then positive things will happen. This is a foreign language to me. It's hard to think positively when all I know are my negative thoughts. I know he is right, but it doesn't make it any easier to change my thought process.

Why am I telling you all of this? I have no idea. I guess I am hoping that I am not alone in my worry's. Maybe some of you feel the same way (you are probably a Langston). I need you to tell me things will get better. I guess in the mean time I will prepare for the worst & hope for the best.

I was going to end my post here, but guess what? I think I know what I am really suppose to write about. HOPE. It's like a light bulb went on. We all need HOPE. Hope that the economy will get better. Hope that we don't lose our jobs or lose our homes. Hope for a brighter tomorrow.

I just got off the phone with Mike & he gave me some hope for the future. Didn't I tell you the glass is half full with him. Well today, he is making me a believer. I guess I just need to put more emphasis on hoping for the best instead of focusing on the worst that can happen. If we don't have hope, we don't have anything but despair.

I just "googled" the word hope & got this definition: Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best.

Hope is what each of us needs at this time. As part of the 13th article of faith says "We believe all things, we HOPE all things, we have endured many things, and HOPE to be able to endure all things". I hope that we can endure all things, good or bad and try to hope for the best.

Here are some quotes on hope for you to think about:

"The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for." Allan K Challmers

"Once you choose hope, anything's possible." Christopher Reeve

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." Dale Carnegie

Hope is exactly what I needed today. I hope that is what you needed as well. Thanks Mike for giving me "HOPE". I love you.


1 comment:

Prescott family said...

Okay you already know what I am going to say because I too am a Langston... WHY are we so negative? It truly drives me crazy. Jamey is very positive & I'm sure that is what drew me to him - how can 2 negative people survive?
Although when it comes to the economy I am a believer that it will get better. HELLO, if we survived the great depression we can survive anything. Not only does hope come into action here but so does FAITH. I believe we did this to ourselves - over inflated home prices?, I mean really. If it had kept going like that our children would never have had a chance of buying a home. Let along their children... it had to come to a head eventually.
There's no where to go but up, right?
Things will get better - hopefully more gradually & more realistically this time!!!